I'm a Rooster - the flip side of life

I belief that fysical abuse from my side is good for me. I know that he can take it. I know I don't care if he hurts, as long he doesn't bother me with it. I am selfish, and I don't feel bad about it. I belief that most people are dumb and ignorant and don't really deserve it to live. I wouldn't mind molesting him and hurting him badly. I wouldn't give a damn if he was crawling on the ground in pain. It would excite me.

I am hurt, the other side of sweet. I don't feel, you can't hurt me anymore. The only one who can hurt me is me, and I will. I am dead as much as alive. I drink from the fruits of blood and tears. No one is better than the mirror inside my head.

The flip side of life.

Sad Song

I feel like a sad song today. I'm a little worn out and I am blue.

Yesterday they asked me if I wanted to lead the rest of the outrolls. They also asked if it was not too much on top of the maintenance work I do. I said yes and no.

I listened to sad songs today on my newly burned cd. It's a new collection of songs of one of my favorite artists.

Today will be the day of seperate independent comments. They will have no connection to any other comments made earlier this day.

I so don't feel like working today.

In My Case I'll Be Sweet

I know you're not talking to me, but still it hurts. Maybe it's just my conscience. Or maybe the connection really does exsist. As many times I gross myself out I do now really scare myself. Fact is, you made me cry.

The lady in question sounds like someone I could really like, or fight. She's probably someone I would admire, and she in turn would look up to me too, or down on me too, whatever the case.

No matter how you look at it, it will cast you into a lifetime of pain, frustration, and an unhealthy loving. As if anything could be any different. You know it can't.

And I'm only glad you're not talking to me.

FACTS: Not Found!

- This weekend hasn't helped me to readers who leave me comments telling me they at least read my blog. That's okay, tho it hurts...
- My computer is not ready to log on to the rkop-chatbox.
- My computer is finally accompanied by a new screen.
- The new sound boxes I bought...SUCK! With a Capital SUCK and an exclamation mark.
- I don't know yet how to handle my new DVD-player, but it was nice to see all that old Mraz stuff again.
- Now I remember Dennis Morris' name again. It's Dennis Morris.
- I forgot about my new blogspot all together.
-I had a nice half-Saturday afternoon at the Bosbaan watching Dragon Boat Races.
-We finally attached the towel hangers to the wall; one and a half in the kitchen and four in the bathroom.
-I was up at 6.00 am this morning.
-It took me almost 1,5 hour to get to work.
-I reviewed my weekend backwards.

Just Feckin e'Round

Because he's so pretty, and so is his blog

Blogger Mania!!!

BUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

I just refound one of my Mix-Up-Old-BloggerSpotter Blogs:

http://www.wiwikanggraini.blogspot.com/

I was so naive....awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..........

EDIT: I found out how to add that old blog to my new account. Oh, thank you!!!

Look, I'm evolving!

FACTS - On a Personal Note

Some facts about me.

I'm not even sure about my own personal facts. It was said that I was born in Surabaya, March first, 1981. The year is probably right, but the date...At that time, in Indonesia, people didn't always take birthdates and such as serious, especially not when the babies were going for adoption, like me. So administration got lost, or data got registered wrong. Oh well...

I arrived in the Netherlands in May 1981. I have no specific dates, my mother knows these things tho.

Okay....

That was about all I wanted to let you know. Maybe more later.

I'm a Cyclist

They're like wrinkles in the water rocking my boat gently. It's not a storm, and I'm not really alarmed, tho I might start thinking of re-balancing the boat. I like my waters wrinkle free, like my shirts when I go visiting my mom. I can handle the wrinkles, I can even handle some waves, but I'm not much of a sailor. Often, and unfortunately or fortunately, it's me rocking the boat anyway.

I have to get passionate again. I need to refind the will to grow and get better. It's impossible, that at age 26, I have already reached the roof. I haven't, I know I haven't. I can still learn so much. There is still so much to wonder about, wander around, wind around, spinn around, out of control caused by severe excitement.

I need to set my new goals and the actions. I have to get myself excited again. Get a nice swing in life and dance on. It's too early to sit down to watch the rain fall and not the pieces in the right places.

I am searching again. I am lost again. I just came round to my new start, the circle I have twirled around in one cycle long. I'm back at start and good to go. I am ready to rediscover myself and to reinvent myself. Right at the start.

I am a beginner too.

the Facts

Lemme tell you some facts:

I don't know any for sure.

Do you?

I Used To Have...

I used to have two accounts on here which I kept mixing up. Now I opened the third account, cause I can't for da-life remember what inlog name or password I used.

Okay, okay...

I used to blog here, cause everyone blogged, and this one was the first for me to find. Then JCM started blogging on MySpace, and since I wanted to keep up with his online writing, I had to migrate too MySpace to get a membership. Long since gone, JCM migrated to his own personal website to blog and I stopped following along.

Still, I still had my JTM who was blogging from time to time. But Mr. JTM decided to go blog here, so here I am back. Luckily, this time, Blogger gave me the oppertunity to log on with my google account data, GAWDTHANK!! Cause that I will remember...mail stuff etcet...

BLAH!!!

EDIT: Double BLAH!!! Anyway, I am really just here to get a membership on Mr. JCM's blog, but I might blog myself, cause I like the title I choose for my blog. Now, anyone?

EDIT2: Can anyone tell me if it's possible to subscribe to blogs and if so, how do I do that!?!?